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Being fat is a 24 hour thing. Fat people get this. A day in the life...

I wake up and have to find something to wear. Will this shirt hide my belly? Are these pants too tight?

Off to work. What about breakfast? Should I start my day right? If I stop and get something does the cashier make note that it's a fat girl ordering oatmeal? Does the cashier wonder if I'm on a diet?

At work. Should I have coffee? I only like coffee with cream and cream has too many calories. Maybe I'll just get some water? No, I need coffee.

Lunch. Should I eat my lean cuisine I brought? Does everyone in the office recognize my bad eating habits as much as I do? Will someone notice if I go to the candy dish again?

Afternoon. Maybe I'll leave a little early today to go work out. I have a lot to do though. May be I'll just work late. I'm good at work. I feel very good about working because I know that I do a great job. Working out, not so much. I'm not very good at working out. Staying late it is.

The drive home. I need to get gas. I want a snack. I don't need a snack. Agh, I'll just skip the snack.

Home: Zoe needs to eat. She wants goldfish. I want some goldfish. I'll just have a few.

Dinner: It sure would be easier just to order something out. I should make something. Nate would like that better. Pasta? No, too many carbs. Do we have any vegetables? I don't really want any vegetables but I want Zoe to learn to eat right. I need to be better about eating vegetables. I hear people have better skin when they eat vegetables. I'd like to have better skin. I wonder if I should get a facial. I bet they're expensive.

Bed time: I want a snack. Nate's drinking a coke. I would love a real coke. That would be delicious. I'd stay up too late if I had a coke now and it's definitely too many calories.

Oh and then I go to bed and do it all over again...

I'm just saying.

227.2

Whew! A drop! Thank goodness. I needed that. Needless to say my sudden decrease in weight is not an actual result of my attempts at weightless but more the effect of a 24 hour stomach bug I had over the weekend. BUT it is still motivation!

I'm sitting in line at Starbucks about to order a 100 calorie frappucino. I am certain it will not be as delicious as the 550 calorie drink I would typically choose, I know that it's WAY healthier and still pretty darn tasty.

I'm still planing on joining the gym but have not had a chance to go by with Nathan in tow so I can foot the bill to him. Hopefully we'll be able to do that soon.

It's such a beautiful day. Zoe and I are going to head to the park to feed the geese. Looking forward to a relaxing evening.

The Melting Pot

Nate and I went to dinner and a movie on Sunday to celebrate an early Valentine's. We went to see Chronicle which was entertaining but I'd recommend till it comes out on video.

For dinner we ate at the Melting Pot. The food was amazing and we had a great time. Ate too much of course.

Current weight: 230.1. Yea, I realize I'm going backwards.

Motivation has returned... 229.6

I'm feeling good. I can do this. I want to be healthier. It's worth it. (Can you tell I'm trying to convince myself).

I did well today. I'm about 200 calories under my daily allotment and I think I will indulge in a skinny cow mint chocolate chip ice cream sandwich. (Only 140 calories!)

I really do want to do well. I am proud of myself. I bought 3 boxes of girls out cookies and donated them to the military. I am having momentary second thoughts about passing up on the Samoas but in the end I'm sure it will be worth it.

Still considering joint the gym but haven't made it around to it signing up yet. I'll get there one day this week.