I really am not surprised

So yea, I gained two pounds back. I'd like to cordially thank my lack of impulse control for this minor set back in my weight loss.

228.2 this morning.

An look where I am. Meeting Mom for breakfast. I'll start back at lunch time. Right?

Alright everyone, I need help.

Don't judge me for getting the French toast with butter and syrup. It's that time of the month and I'm desperate.

226... Again

Well, at least I haven't gained weight right?

I'm going to be more committed this week. Still need to lose 4 pounds by the 1st to meet my goal!

Give me a pep talk. I need it!

I'm always sick

Sitting at the doctor's office. War infection and sore throat. All I want is comfort food.

Can I please skip my weigh in on Monday?

I'm an emotional eater

Always have been, always will be. The first step is admitting you have a problem right?

Picture's of Dad following quadruple bypass surgery. He's doing well. Extubated this evening. Pain meds seem to be working now.

226

I didn't lose much weight this week (only 0.2 pounds) but I also worked a lot and didn't make it to the park once. I'm proud of a loss even if it's not much.

Even so, I'm still on track to meet my goal! Just 3 more pounds to lose before 02/01/12. I can do it!

Getting a sore throat. Hoping it's nothing major. Leaving for Mobile tomorrow afternoon for a Health Fair. Looking forward to some time away from the office but will be missing Zoe and Nate.

I'm a bit nervous about traveling. I've always had a hard time eating right out of town. any suggestions for car ride snacks?

Tough Weekend

It's been bad. Real bad. Friday night Nate and I went to a movie with Erin (his brother) and Nicole (his girlfriend). We were running late, so we had to get fast food before we went in. I had a whole Milo's cheeseburger and shared a fry with Nate. THEN we shared a real coke and candy at the theatre. I felt very gross this morning.

I vowed to do better today and I did (until tonight)! Ashley came over to help me with Zoe while I cleaned the house and we decided to go out for dinner. We ate at Moe's. I really didn't order much but I indulged in the chips. Geez. Not looking forward to weighing in Monday morning.

Sick

So... There's a stomach bug going around the office. Thank God for Phenergen.

I have not weighed myself since Monday. I've done really well on my diet most of this week but I haven't been able to go workout because of work/rain/more excuses.

I didn't eat real well today but since most of my food is not staying down I suppose a handful of M&Ms won't be too big of a deal, right?

Looking forward to an evening in which hugging porcelain is not involved. Geez. If it's not one thing it's another! But hey, it could be worse.

Rain

Rain rain go away, I would like to go walking today!

I've enjoyed saving money by walking at the park but I think I'm going to have to break down and join the gym. It puts a real damper on my weight loss when I can't go for a walk/run. Maybe in February? Nate mentioned he'd pay for a membership as a birthday present. I will likely be taking him up on that offer.

I've been eating really well since back at work this week. I feel like I'm starting to learn to integrate something sweet but stay within my calorie intake. I was happy to see that I have lost enough weight that the Lose It app decreased the total amount of calories I can take in daily to continue to lose weight. That's a good sign!

I want to thank everyone for all the support. I hope you all are enjoying following along and hope that I can inspire others to take this challenge with me! I'm actually looking forward to another weigh in and don't know if I can handle going another week without weighing myself!

Watching a football game without beer

Most of you who know me recognize that I am not a football fan. I enjoy a game every now and then but I am interested enough in the outcome of the BCS National Championship game to be watching it while home alone. Without a cold beer mind you. Damn this diet. What's the point in watching football without beer??

Well, it's Monday which means time to check in. Drum roll please...


226.2! That's a total of a 3% loss!!

I am using the Lose It app on my phone which I love. If you are interested in a weight loss app for your smartphone I recommend this one. I can track my weight and calories. There's a large selection of food items from restaurants and the grocery store too so I don't have to google nutrition contents while eating out or shopping. Check it out: http://www.loseit.com/

There are worst things than being fat

I realize this blog is about trying to lose weight, but I feel like I may need to clarify my reasons for some. First, I am vain. I do want to be thinner and look better in my clothes; but I don't have a desire to be super skinny. I just want to be healthy. Truly, I just want to be able to keep up with my daughter through out the day. I want to chase her around the yard and not get tired and make her go inside because I'm tired. I want to be able to run a mile again in under 7.5 minutes just because I enjoyed it so much.

With all of these things that I want, the honest truth remains that I am happy with who I am. I am blessed to have a husband who doesn't care about my weight (just my health). He's always encouraging and I truly believe because of him I have become comfortable with who I am as a person (physically and spiritually) and have grown to be a better person than I ever would have been without him. So I'd like to thank him for being him; because without him, I wouldn't be me.

Keeping busy

As of 12:45 today, I have walked/jogged 2.25 miles at the park, done all my grocery shopping for the week, gotten dinner going in the crock pot (yummy homemade black bean soup), gone to the bank, got Zoe down for a nap, washed 3 loads of laundry and cleaned about 1/2 the house.

Why? Because I'm distracting myself from eating!! Eating well on the weekends is so difficult. All I want to do is lounge and snack. I want to go to lunch with my Mom but dare not for the likely hood that I would over indulge.

All I can say is thank God for a messy house sometimes! It will be sparkling by this evening.

01/06/12 228.2 pounds (-5.8 pounds)!

I've decided that for the time being i'm only going to weigh weekly (possibly biweekly). I'm afraid I'll get down on myself if I have a day where I slip up and see the evidence on the scale the next morning. Weigh in days will be Mondays. Don't worry, I'll post in between weigh ins so you guys can keep an eye on my progress.

I threw away the cream cheese frosting

Thanks for the encouragement Sam. You were right, I just needed to get rid of it.

I went for a walk/run this afternoon before picking up Zoe from daycare. I suppose one of the nice things about getting to work at 5:30am is I don't feel guilty about leaving early. The weather was beautiful and I enjoyed being out of the office for the afternoon.

I weighed in at 228.6 pounds this morning!

Side note: I did have a spoonful of cream cheese frosting before I threw it out. Baby steps!

229

5 pounds and counting. I think that's about 2.2%? Yea! Baby steps baby steps baby steps.

Of course I came home for dinner and Nathan wanted to make enchiladas. I love when Nate cooks, but I always eat too much because it's so delicious (and almost always not good for me).

I have the hardest time once I'm home. Not looking forward to this weekend. Maybe I'll work extra so I can stick to my diet? Or do I actually have to learn to eat well in the real world?

I ended up staying late at work so I didn't get to go walking, but I plan on going tomorrow evening.

Goal Setting

After talking with my friend and co-worker Sam, I've realized that I need to set a few goals for my weight loss. Therefore, Sam and I have decided to try and lose 5% of our body weight by my birthday (02/01). That means my goal weight by 01/31/12 is 222 pounds. It truly depresses me that after losing 5% I would still weigh 222 pounds...

I did well on my diet today. I  ate about 1,200 calories today. I did indulge again today when I got home. I had two tablespoons of Sander's Hot Fudge (a Christmas gift from my Grandmother). I was good though, normally I'd have at least 5 spoonfuls plus a huge dinner.

I went for another walk this afternoon. I was hoping to get 2.25 miles in but it got dark pretty quickly and I only got 1.5 miles before I felt a little uncomfortable being at the park alone. Feels good to work out though. I miss the days of running 5 miles in an afternoon for soccer practice. Well I don't miss running 5 miles, I just miss being able to do it!

Looking forward to a weigh in tomorrow. Felt like today went pretty well. I even sent my blog link out to a few more friends. (They're watching me).

                                                Samantha, Myself and Ashley at Halloween

At work today, I was working with a few wellness nurses getting ready for an event next week. We got to practice  with the machines and I checked my Cholesterol and Glucose. I figure I can post my current readings from today and a few months from now check again to see how I stand.

Total Cholesterol- 226 (H)
HDL- 62 (Ideal)
Triglycerides- 143 (Normal)
LDL- 108 (H)
Non Fasting Glucose- 99 (Normal)

I'm a fanatic about checking my glucose and have never had a problem with it. This is the first time my Total Cholesterol has ever been elevated. Darn that pesky LDL. Goal: Get my TC and LDL within normal range.

Morning After Regrets

I knew I wouldn't be happy with having posted yesterday; but again, I understand my needs. Accountability right? So I sent the blog link to my sister for her to follow along. Got to have someone I know watching, right?

Yesterday was a fairly successful day. I ate well through dinner, though I did partake in desert which consisted of Razzleberry Pie and Vanilla Frozen Yogurt! I even made it to the park near my house and walked for 2 miles. I posted a few pictures below of my new favorite walking trail. The geese are hysterical. They follow you around begging for food. Sorry guys, No food for your you. I'm dieting.

                                                       My favorite section of the trail

        Isn't this gorgeous? You can't help but want to be here on a beautiful day. I hope this   motivates me to get out and go for more walks. Looking forward to bringing my daughter for a walk. She already loves the geese. 

So following a lovely day at the park and an overall successful dieting day, I still caved and indulged myself with the above mentioned desert and also managed to grab a spoonful or two of homemade cream cheese frosting from the freezer. (I will point out that it's left over from making cupcakes for my Daughter's Birthday party at her daycare. I should just throw it out...) This has always been my problem. I can diet for a day (maybe two) but then I fall off the wagon.

That said, here's to a drop even as a non-compliant dieter! 232.6 pounds. I'll take what I can get. Never mind that 44.5% body fat. I will continue to insist that my scale can not accurately measure body fat percent but I'll argue that point at another time.

For Starters...

I'm 26 years old and married to an incredible man that I love. We have a beautiful daughter that we are raising in a nurturing home. I have a job I love and make decent money doing. Sure there are a few things I would like to change but nothing out of the question (pay off my student loans, a bigger house for our daughter to grow up in etc). There is only one thing I truly struggle with and have for the past 10 years... My weight.


I suppose I could argue that my issues with controlling my weight started Freshman year of college when I gained the traditional "Freshman 15"; however mine was more like the "Freshman 20". From there, I moved out of my parents home and slowly began eating myself to where I am now. The reason I decided to start blogging, is because I need to be held accountable. My husband always jokes because I'm always telling him when I lose weight. He says "Rae, if you lost as much weight as you tell me about, you wouldn't weigh anything". And it's true. I have no desire to tell anyone when I've gained weight but I'm more than happy to mention when I've lost a few.

So, here's what I need from this blog. Accountability. Therefore, I'm going to do something that is so embarrassing all I can possibly want from this point forward is to do everything I can to not get to this point again. I'm going to admit my weight...


01/02/12- 234 pounds


There, I said it. Ouch, that hurts my pride.